Bridal Party and Ring Bearer Decisions

So officially I think we have our wedding party:

MOH: Jessica Jones

BM: Mitch

Bridesmaids: Lisa, Britt, Luane, Shannon
Groomsmen: Cory Ernest Derek Andy

Flowergirl: Hannah

But now onto the TRICKY part.... I just don't know what to do with the Ring Bearers! We have FIVE and that I think friends is one to many! Gerald has two nephews.. Cullen and Kohen and I have three: Hunter, Holden, and Jaxon! I am so confuzzled. I want to be fair to everyone yet I can't seem to figure out how I want to pick. While Jaxon will only be one and probably won't even care.. The others may have some sort of idea and ask later. But Why Aunt Angel or Uncle Gerald wasn't I chosen to be in your wedding? I could use them to hold my train or something but, I think my wedding party is already huge enough and I am not sure that I would even need someone to hold my dress... I just don't know what to do or how to choose. Part of me says pick Hunter and Cullen. They are old enough to stand at the front and understand it isn't time to play. Part of me says little Kohen and Holden would be sooo cute. But, then I have my little Jaxon with whom will be walking by then.. Oh what a dream he is. 

The tears and joys of a wedding

Okay crazy minds do not work for me lately. I have decided on this dress for the wedding. I am actually In LOVE with this dress http://www.toodresses.com/Wedding-Dresses-Plus-Size-Wedding-Dresses.html

Planning A Wedding

Oh wow! I get to plan a BIG one! Something that matters.. Something that will be.. As I begin to look I get excited that soon I will be married and this time in a real wedding, to a real man, not one who ummmmm sucks big ones. or small ones (literally). I was such an idiot to of did that. I should have been a runaway bride!! Hell, it would have been real smart. But, this time It is real. My heart, my soul, my love. 

A Change of Heart -- by Nancy Frederick

A book I read for once a day. I blog I write to share my feelings with the world.



I love my new toy .. My Kindle... but, it isn't really new anymore. I have just decided that each book I read I will share with the world my feelings on the book. Okay so I don't want to lie..It may not happen but, then again their is a Strong possibility that I will keep to my word and share.

Oh Annabeth..I want to grab you and shake you and tell you I have been there! I have been that door mat and it is not cool at all. Get rid of the sucker and go on with your life don't let him do this to you! R.J. is a complete and utter joke and at this point I would get up out of the bed and tell him to go to sleep alone.. Tomorrow it would be time for him to find a new home one far away from me. And her sister is not much better someone who pushes her around like she doesn't have to do anything else in life. Oh the sweet life of a door mat....I am trying to stay in-tuned to this book but, I am so infuriated that I see myself in Annabeth and all I used to go through in life. The whole scene with her daughter oh I understand but, I have to tell you the author prolonged the inevitable. I mean for days it seemed like the same thing was happening over and over again. Maybe she could have left some of it out and continued on with the story. Right now I am stuck not sure if I can continue..But My momma didn't raise no quitter and I think I like where the story is going just waiting to get there.

To Be Continued.............

As I finished the book I truly realized and saw myself in Anabeth for so long a door mat once you find the strength to pick it up and dust off you can prove you can stand on your own. It doesn't matter the dirt in your life it is the joy in finding oneself. I gave this book a 4 on goodreads because giving a 5 is always hard. I did love the book though!.

<3 Angel <3

I am EnGaGeD

Oh my how exciting life has been since my last blog..I am engaged.  Christmas day he popped the question.. Oh what a wonderful man.

Random I am

1. My real name is Angel, only because the hospital forgot to put the "a" on my birth certificate.
2. I am currently a full time employee, in college full time, and I am in love with SL, MW, and Farmville
3. I have two sisters and a brother (on my mom's side) and 13 brothers and sisters because my dad is a male whore whom I have never met but one of them and i am the oldest of all of them
4. I don't know what my "real" hair color is.
5. I got married in a prison with my only witnesses being the chaplain and some dude mopping the floor. I wonder why it didn't work lol.
6. I have to be at least 15-20 minutes early for everything or I think that I am late.
7. I have really huge breasts that are 100% real.
8. I met my fiance on plentyoffish.com and we have been together now for over 2 years hopefully planning our wedding soon.
9. I hate any type of light when I am trying to sleep. I have to have my room completely dark and no tv.
10. My biggest desire in this world is to have a baby. I would give up the world just to have one.
11. Until my current boyfriend I had never dated anyone without a felony. (and i have never been in trouble.)
12. I was the youngest Emergency Medical Technician (EMT) ever to be licensed in the state of Virginia at the age of 16.
13. I graduated in the 11th grade with a 4.0 GPA.
14. I have the ugliest cutest dog in the world.
15. I don't like many people. I live a quiet life and prefer it that way.
16. My grandfather (R.I.P) was my Idol. Although many people never saw what a great man he was.
17. I will not eat anything that a pepper (green, yellow, red, any) has touched even if it wasn't cooked with it I won't touch it.
18. 3 years ago. I moved back to Virginia from Florida. I went out the window only taking two bags of clothes and have rebuilt my life again at home with people whom I love.
19. My mother is my best friend and my worst enemy at times and I couldn't imagine life without her.
20. I adore senior citizens and wish I could match my clothes to my lipstick and accesories like they do.
21. I have a very high IQ but, refuse to show that to others unless questioned.
22. I use the air conditioner in the winter because I am always Hot.
23. 4 years ago I weighed over 480 lbs and have spent the last 4 years getting healthy and have lost over 230 lbs. I suffered from bullemia and have a hole in my esophagus.
24. Luane Leasure is probably one of the best friends I have ever had and I have never met her in person.
25. I never thought I could think of 25 random things about me. I guess I could.

Tuesday August 17, 2010

Today begins the day where I start to journal. to tell my life. to put it out there.I have contemplated beginning a blog because I am such a private person yet. I feel the need to do it. It gives me strength to clear my head and to say what I am feeling in my own setting. I would begin by telling about me or who i am but, if you are reading this you know who i am you know what i am about and you know my words are true. This morning I woke up knowing it is back to work for me tomorrow yet I know that this weekend I will finally have 4 days to spend with the man I love.  Sometimes I believe we take things for granted and realize that every minute counts we have had our problems but, god himself knows that I don't think I could live a day without Gerald in my life or better yet I don't want to. In life we think of all we have been through and I never regret I just learn that through my mistakes I have become the person I am today. Well this morning I woke up to go take a shower before me and Gerald went out to breakfast and you would never guess there was no water. Damn water people and I wasn't even late with my bill. So I called for once I didn't immediately curse someone out or get mad and the lady was like "oh no they cut the wrong person's water off" WTF??? You don't give me a credit when you make a mistake like that. Oh well. Water is back on no harm done. Now I think I need a nap...